…..oh boy, and it wasn’t pretty. Yesterday I was told by my supervisor that I may have to travel and cover another office once every month or two. Some of this is on the weekends. I was very unhappy about this even though I knew for a few months that this may happen. I wallowed, all day, in feeling upset about this.
The selfish part of me was focused on it isn’t fair that all of those in my job description don’t have to participate. It is very inconvenient. I will have to miss several weekend activities planned. I won’t have control of my free time 100% and I am/was very upset about it.
There isn’t anything I can do about it so I need to change my attitude or it will consume me. I wanted to quit my job, not an option. Move to another department, won’t matter I will still have to do this coverage I was told. I thought about crazy ways to earn a living to avoid this. It’s embarrassing to say how many hours I was focused on this and I even shed a few tears of rage when I got home.
I stopped and thought how dumb. Suck it up I told myself. Learn to deal with the stress and that this doesn’t fit in my plan of how I want to do things and spend “my” time.
So chatted about it with the powers that be to get a clearer picture. I went to lunch with my husband, exercised, fumed for a while and I am trying to take on a peaceful resolve not a destructive resentment.
And Zentangles help. This is a study in attempting new patterns. Like parts of it a lot….
and making amigurumi’s out of new yarn and starting a new quilt. Ahhhhhhhhh…..that feels so much better now……
So much more fun than working, I was wracking my brain trying to figure out a way to do this for a living but alas, there is no way. I am sticking to doing creative measures as a fun way to spend my time. I am having fun quilting for others. I have applied to a quilt show and I am testing patterns.
That’s enough to keep me busy after working 40 hours or more a week.
Counting down till the next issue of Quilty magazine comes out and I can see my quilt in glossy paper!!